Decision Made!!!

I really hate indecision. I can be tenacious, determined, stubborn even, and not know when to quit once I have my course set, but getting it set is very difficult for me. It's not because I'm wishy-washy but that I want to be sure my choice is the best choice--because, once I choose, I am stubborn and tenacious. If I'm going to be that focused on my path, I need to be sure it's the right one before I get started.

Since I need to be here with my parents at this time, it's impossible for me to maintain my home but how in the world do I fit all my earthly belongings into 1 bedroom??? Furniture and clothes are no problem, but all my art supplies??? Putting them in storage isn't an answer because then I can't use them, so what's the point in keeping them? And how do I justify keeping all that "stuff" that I want to use in my art--someday--but really has no value until then???
Keeping the house vacant until I'm able to move back isn't an answer because of the neighborhood, which is not the best to be sure, and an empty house is asking for trouble. Too much vandalism and destruction.

On the other hand, this would be the perfect time to just let go and move on with my life...use this time at my parents as a time to downsize, clear out, reduce my baggage, and get ready to be free of all entanglements. One of my dreams has been to travel but I was never free enough to go...this would be a good goal right now (lack of money aside).

On another hand-or are we back to the first one again?--I've always wanted and needed a studio and where will I ever find rent as cheaply as my payments are here? I've been crusading about turning Slavic Village into another art community, so why not put my money where my mouth is and Do It Myself?

So--my decision is made: All of the Above! My photography job is only part time now, but i can earn almost enough to pay my bills. The house is on the market, but i don't foresee any real action in this economy so, in the meantime, as long as I don't LIVE in my home but just use it as a studio, the fear of break-in isn't as traumatic and I can go there and Do Art as a job--show up 8am every day I'm not shooting, and WORK. Create Art. Use up my precious supplies that I can't bear to get rid of. Teach. Share. Create an artist's studio in my neighborhood to PROVE that it can be done, and maybe encourage others to do the same, thus helping renew my area. Become a serious artist, market myself, and finally give myself the opportunity to prove I have what it takes to be successful.

Then, when I reach the point where my parents are stable and don't need me, having hopefully used up and spread the wealth of my art, having accomplished my goals and dreams in this area, I can happily move on to the next stage of my life, whatever that will turn out to be.

Sounds like a plan.